Dear Sweet Baby Kay!
The time has finally come! It is time for us to meet face to face! I simply cannot believe the time has finally come. Gramma and Grandpa came over from Alabama so spend the weekend with us before your arrival. We packed the rest of our bags and got ready for the day that would change all of our lives forever. We headed to the hospital on Sunday October 21, 2012 for a hopeful due date of October 22, 2012. We cleaned the house and made sure everything was "just so" for your arrival home. Grandpa took some pictures for us so we will always be able to remember this adventure.
We have a mini nursery set up for you in the sitting area of our bedroom. This little alcove is perfect for this purpose. We will also be bringing up a mini fridge to put in the corner by the rocker when you start to drink from bottles. This will keep us from going up and down stairs in the middle of the night for your bottles. Across from what you see in this picture is your changing table area underneath the bay window that overlooks our back yard.
We put the final touches on your nursery! All that we have left to add is you, my Sweet Baby Kay. Grandpa snapped a picture of me very pregnant with you. As you can see, I am holding a large water jug. I did not let this water jug leave my hand after my little dehydration episode!
Gramma and I took a couple of pictures together by the day bed which is across from your crib. We think this will come in handy if we have to spend the night in the room with you at times when you don't feel well. You can see the maternity pictures we took as well as the gender reveal photos framed and hanging from your wall.
Grandpa captured the smallest details of your room too. This is a pillow your Aunt Elizabeth gave to us at one of your showers.
It was go time! Daddy and I took a picture together outside of the house as we were packing up to leave to head to the hospital to meet you.
Wow! I am REALLY pregnant. You can see from these pictures how much you have dropped. That means you are ready to be born!
Of course I had to grab one picture with your Grandpa before we headed off to the hospital.
We met your Nana and Papa (with Gramma and Grandpa) at McAllisters for an early dinner. The doctor wanted me to make sure I ate something before I came to the hospital, because it could be awhile before I was going to be able to eat anything else once being admitted to the hospital.
Grandpa snapped some pictures of me and Daddy walking into the hospital.
Here I am all cuddled up in the bed at Lexington Medical Center, Room number 12. The nurses were so kind to us.
Grandpa took pictures of your heart beating and the contraction monitor.
I snapped a picture of your REALLY excited Daddy!
I was really nervous the whole time we were at the hospital. Daddy and I said bye to your grandparents and settled in for what turned out to be a long night. The nurses read the orders that Dr. Morton left for my care. They gave me Cervidil overnight to help me to dilate. I had mini contractions all night and simply could not get comfortable. I was hooked up to many wires and monitors and if I shifted too much, the nurses would have to come wake me up to readjust the monitors.
The morning finally arrived. We were greeted with an ear to ear grinning Dr. Morton. She did a cervical check, which was easily one of the most painful things I have ever experienced. This was because of your position in my tummy. I had not dilated at all. Not at all. The Cervidil did not do what it was supposed to do. Dr. Morton gave orders to give me another medication called "Siditic" or something similar in hopes it would also make me dilate. Dr. Morton also gave orders to start the IV Pitocin, which would speed up and increase the intensity of my contractions. I labored all.day.long. I walked, and I rolled and I changed positions I don't know how many times all to find I still had not dilated. We had a Douala with us, Dianne Pound, provided by the hospital. She was wonderful keeping me calm and feeding me popsicles as I could not eat anything.
At the end of the long day of labor and painful contractions, Dr. Morton came back in to give us "the news". She said we had a couple of options. We could stay another night, try the Cervidil again that night in hopes that I would dilate to I could give a natural birth. She said they may have to put a weight of some sort on your head to help pull you out. She said if this did not work, they would need to do a C-section. The other option would be to go home, and wait.
What did mommy do? I cried. You were not ready to come and you were making that point very clear to me. I was not going to do anything to risk your health, so Daddy and I pack our bags and we went home. I cried the entire way home. I realized how incredibly much I love you and how I don't ever want to do anything to harm you. I cried because this was the first of many decisions I will have to make as your Mommy, putting your best interest before mine. You will come when you are ready. We will wait for you, my love.
Dr. Morton wrote me out of work for the rest of my pregnancy. I stayed at home and spent a lot of time walking, thinking about you, praying for you and reflecting on what kind of Mommy I want to be. Like I was saying earlier, I was nervous the entire time of your induction. Something just didn't feel right. This was my first "mommy instinct" situation, and I should have listened to it.
Your due date came, and we still were waiting. I wished you a happy due date, darling daughter and thanked God that We made it to 40 healthy weeks together. We love you so much and are ready when you are. Your due date, October 29, 2013 was a full moon. Was the old wives tale true for you??
I cannot wait to meet you, but not until you are ready. I love you more than words could ever describe.
Until your arrival,
xoxo,
Mom
