Tiny Miracle

Dear Sweet Baby Kay,

There are no words to express how excited we are that God has given us the gift of your precious life.  We have prayed for you and dreamed for you since the moment our lives joined together on August 5, 2006.

Time started to go by, and days turned to weeks, turned to months, turned to years.  We were so sad thinking that we never would get to meet you.  We did not understand what was wrong.  We went and saw many doctors and took many tests all to discover there was no answer to why we did not have you.

Your Daddy and I spent many nights crying over the thought of never having you, meeting you, holding you and kissing your cheeks.  We spent a lot of time talking about the "what if's" for our life if we never got to meet you.  We met many friends along the way who understood how we felt, and then they were blessed with their own tiny miracle, leaving us to wonder "why not us?".

A couple of years before we learned of you, we were thrilled to find out you had an older brother or sister on the way!  This was a joyous time as we thought our family was finally beginning.  Unfortunately, as hard as your sweet sibling fought to live, they just weren't strong enough to survive. 

A couple of days before Christmas, this tiny baby, who we call Andrew, went to heaven before all of us.  We cannot wait to meet him one day, and for our family to be all together in the glory of God's Kingdom.  We can only dream of what an overwhelming and beautiful day that will be for all of us.

Oh, Sweet Baby Kay!  We have prayed for you for so long.  We weren't sure in what kind of package you would arrive to us, but we knew that when it did, we would be on our knees, so grateful for the gift of you.  Your Daddy and I realized a couple of things this year:

1. We don't make babies, God makes babies.
2. All children are a gift from God and each one is His child first and foremost, sent on loan to us on earth to love, nurture, teach and protect. 

We realized that God will build our family in His time and His way, and we both completely surrendered to his will.  We began our adoption paperwork, and signed our statement of faith.

We turned it all over to God's will for us to begin our family.  We were pre-approved for the adoption process.  We were all set to go to our first adoption information session, when I discovered you.  Yes, Sweet Baby Kay, you.  What a beautiful, tiny miracle you are.  Your Daddy and I are so overjoyed that God chose us to be your Mom and Dad.  He loves you and us enough to bring us together in His way to be a family.

We cried Sweet Baby Kay, oh did we ever cry! Your Grandparents cried, your Great Grandmother cried, your Aunts and Uncles cried, your cousins cried, our closest friends cried. So many tears of joy for the beauty your life! We all have prayed for you and cannot express to you how grateful we are for your tiny life. You are a miracle.  You are so loved already.  You are perfect.  You are the most amazing gift your Daddy and I have ever received.  As we promised to each other in our wedding vows Joshua 1:5 "I will never leave or forsake you", we make that same promise  to you Sweet Baby Kay. 

You, our precious child, are a gift from above.

PICTURE TIME!

This is a picture of you and at the bottom is record of the very first time we heard your tiny heart beating.  Simply overwhelmed at the thought of you.

What a tiny peanut you started out as!

We saw you a few weeks later and found you to be healthy and strong with your tiny, perfect T-Rex arms!

Again, your tiny heartbeat can be seen below.  It was music to our ears.

At our 12 week appointment, you were more recognizable as a tiny human.  It looks like you will have long legs like Mommy and will probably be tall just like both of us.  We were so thankful to see your face and watch you squirm around.  At one point during this visit you even raised your hand as if to say "hi Mom and Dad!".

Look at your heart beating so strong.  We count you and your heartbeat in our blessings every single day.

It has been a long road to get to you.  We had many twist and turns and heart wrenching difficult times.  BUT!  At the end of the road, it was worth every second of the journey to know you are our child, our gift, chosen for us.  We are super blessed, graciously humbled, and incredibly grateful.

With all our love,

Honored to be,

Your Mommy and Daddy